Nightmares...

Typically I can't wait to get to sleep at night where I can escape the drama of my actual life. Normally dreams let me live out fantasies and let me do things I could never do when I wake. However, last night I had a dream that contained my worst fears. The dream entailed me talking on the phone to my ex where he went on and on about how he had dated his Mom's friend for a year and how incredible she was etc. etc. From that dream I was able to segue into a real life nightmare where I began to think of my dear sweet boy with other women. Specifically his Mom's friend, "Arianna." You see his mother is actually friends with a much younger girl who is very attractive, and would accompany his family on Mother's Day events and yard sales, and basically anything that his mom was doing. My ex even went to dinner with his Mom, her boyfriend, and Arianna- making it look like I'm sure the perfect double date. So now I am riddled with worry that they are together and I have images that won't go away. Even if he isn't with her specifically, now all I can think about is MY man with someone else- being happy with someone other than me. It makes me sick to think about it and my heart is racing a mile a minute. Yet I can't get the thought out of my brain. So here's to hoping that my ex is single, and is secretly pining away for me and will come to his senses sooner rather than later.