Flying with no Net

After the breakup I was able to get by because there was this hope that we would get back together. Then once the hope died I got by because I had a few guys that I wasn't dating, but kept my interests elsewhere. But now I have decided to eschew the dysfunction and go it completely alone. Sure I could have held onto the hope that something would change in that relationship. And it did hurt to cut all contact with him, because after being dumped he became my new safety net. Yet, I know that I can't get from that relationship what I wanted, so it's time for me to do the hard thing and go things completely alone. Let myself heal from my multiple scars and just enjoy myself. I know that what I want more than anything else is to end up with someone, but I guess right now isn't the right time. Within 3 weeks I have been denied by three different men...wonder if thats some kind of record haha If I can go through all this then so can you. And I have you to watch me to make sure that I don't go back on my promise to end contact with these guys- no matter how hard that is.