Hmmm

Last night I went out with some of my friends, and I asked them all, including the boys, what they thought of the fact that while Ryan claimed to find me attractive, care about me, and think I'm a cool person, he didn't want to date me. And the unanimous verdict was that it was bullshit- that he couldn't possibly think all those things about me and not date me. Which means in their contention that at least one of the above things wasn't true. I don't know if thats any better or worse really...But the bottom line is that for whatever reason he doesn't have an interest, and its time for me to let go of him as a safety net, friend, and hopeful soulmate.

No restraint

It happened again, I checked the useless Facebook site. And of course I got to see a pic of the ex with some hot girls when he went on his road trip out to another college. He looks so happy in the pic, makes me wonder which of them he was out there to see...I just don't see a time when seeing him be happy with other girls will ever happen. Also, my ex-guy friend who sided with the ex has apparently gone and gotten himself a girlfriend, and is all happy mushy bullshit. I just want to scream. The whole breakup business sucks, especially when everyone else is moving on but you. Although in my imaginary pretend life apparently I have moved on, being that I told "Ryan" that I was seeing someone, just so he wouldn't think I was into him anymore. Maybe to make him jealous or more interested, or maybe just to look less pathetic. However, creating a fictional boyfriend is about the dumbest lamest thing ever. Fingers crossed the imaginary part of that evaporates soon.