Okay so I had intended to leave well enough alone with, lets call him "Ryan." But, I just couldn't do it, and despite his telling me on multiple occasions that he is still in love with this girl who doesn't love him like that, I can't seem to let it go. That is probably because 1. I don't get his attraction to this girl, 2. I think that we would be a great fit, 3. Even if we wouldn't be, would it be such a horrible thing to just give it a shot??
Honestly I don't understand how someone who cares about me, and thinks I'm an awesome person, and is also attracted to me has no interest in dating me...baffles my mind. My stubborn nature is making me hang in there and try and get what I want, but I have no idea how, because of distance we don't see each other... And he can obviously live without me as he can go without contacting me for stretches of time. So what do I do?!? And yes this all seems rather pathetic, but I have no other prospects on the horizon and I am just head over heels for this guy that I've been friends with for a year. He knows exactly how I feel, which probably isn't a good thing...I want this one thing, after all the crap in the past few months, I will get it!
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